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January 8th, 2002
12:06 am


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it was the talk of the town
Today was a day of working hard on several things and completing absolutely nothing. Well, okay, I'm now using aci.net (flat-rate ISDN access with a local dialup number) as an ISP instead of Idiom (usage-sensitive ISDN account, running about $200/month despite my best attempts at minimal usage). Even that's not actually done, though, because I have to bite the bullet and close the Idiom account.

Had a long and interesting discussion with elflet, via AIM, about a direction he would like our scene work to take. And another long one via MUSH with risu, wherein we each fretted at the other and perhaps we both feel better now.

But in general, today was depressing for its lack of motivation and accomplishment. I don't know if this is just stress moving in for the duration, or if I feel like crap because I've been eating crap (the diet went to hell in a handbasket yesterday. I stuck to it today, albeit not optimally). There's a lot I don't know. I'll settle, I think, for going to sleep and hoping it will all be better in the morning.

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Date:January 8th, 2002 11:55 am (UTC)
The interesting thing about last night's chat was 1) taking something that's an emotion that's not easy to look at into words (if part of you has walled itself off for protective reasons, it stands to reason that part might be hard to describe clearly...), and 2) managing to do it on-line. I've always found online discussions of emotion to be fraught with hazards, usually in one side or the other mis-understanding and becoming upset. (Vulnerable + misunderstood can lead to trouble...)

On the other hand, we not only know how to persist in discussions, but we're being patient enough with each other to do it. :) When the light went on for you (describing how you interpreted "let's pretend"), it illuminated my process as well and we both benefitted. *kiss*

(Anyway, back to the salt mines...)
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