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August 3rd, 2001
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food report
In the spirit of giving lothie equal opportunity to pick on my diet, here's what I ate yesterday:

Breakfast: 3 eggs scrambled with a tablespoon of cream. (Seasoned with black pepper, garlic salt, and possibly dried minced onion, I forget.) 2 slices of turkey bacon (usually I have 4, but it was grocery day and I was out)

Lunch: a bowl of the aforementioned chili. I do intend to try elflet's version, but I already had the ingredients for this in place. (A bowl equates to about 1/2 lb of meat.)

Dinner: a .9lb rib steak, cooked medium rare. Yum.

Before-bed snack: a handful of macadamia nuts. This wasn't so much for hunger as for fidgeting while reading.

Water intake: 5 liters.

Now, say it with me: not nearly enough vegetables. They're my doom. I'm also out of the multivitamins I use, but I'm still doing the ECA stacking and I think it's helping me.

Current Mood: mellowmellow

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Date:August 3rd, 2001 11:35 am (UTC)
I'm glad the ECA is working for you -- were you reading my LJ when I got suicidal? That's what it did for me. :(

Are you picking on my diet? I'll have to go see. I'm sure it needs picking on. I actually thought of you when I cheated last night: "Ambar will be disappointed." I don't know why I thought that but I did.

(So why did I do it anyway? Um...)
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Date:August 3rd, 2001 11:58 am (UTC)
Probably because doing what you wanted in the matter of consuming chocolate and sugar was more important than what I might think of you later? :-)

Which is as it should be, really. You can't eat for someone else. You can only eat for yourself.

No -- I missed your ECA tour. :-( Around what dates?
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Date:August 3rd, 2001 12:40 pm (UTC)
It could NEVER be THAT simple! But of course, you're right. I *do* care what you think but that only goes so far...

I started taking the EC (not A) stack at the beginning of July...7/6 I started getting emotionally flaky (I report being "too emotional" to write a "real entry"); 7/10 I began to get alarmed about my emotional state and weird dreams; was really bad 7/11; 7/13 I was less horribly depressed but very pissed off and flaky; noted on 7/16 that I was afraid to socialize (I *am* shy but I was really petrified); gave up on my diet that same day; "took a break" from LJ 7/19 (I sounded cheery but wanted to die) -- oh, and panicked one of my friends, who told me that my "break" post was exactly like the suicide note of another friend; and then 7/20 made the final decision to stop taking the EC stack.

Not mentioned in my journal were constant fights with my husband, interspersed with even more depression and tears than I reported. I very much wanted to die 7/19.

I've read that people with certain types of mental illness shouldn't take ephedrine and I guess I'm one of those people. I try so damn hard to be reasonable and most of July was a nightmare -- it took another full week after stopping the ephedrine to really feel normal (normal for me).

Anyway, it's there to read if you want.
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Date:August 3rd, 2001 02:40 pm (UTC)
I use ma huang tea (brand name "Breathe Easy" from Traditional Medicinals) when my hay fever gets irksome; it's basically an ephedra.

That stuff does not combine well at all with caffeine for me, and I avoided the combination after a few minor mistakes.

Alone, it does a good job on the symptoms. Once, I made some for a friend and then she had to leave and hadn't touched it, so I drank it. The effects of a double dose were very unpleasant.

It is a drug, and it is mood altering; it's pretty mild if treated carefully, but even then it makes me feel, hm, acerbic. There's a certain artificial clarity (which _feels_ artificial), and I'm more prone to be sharp with people and with situations. It is not so bad that it violates my massive control freakism against taking highly perception altering drugs, but it's enough that I don't take it unless I want to get rid of my hay fever (and actually I've switched to an OTC hay fever med that doesn't make me drowsy or feel as odd as ephedrine.)
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Date:August 3rd, 2001 02:53 pm (UTC)
I've used "Breathe Easy" when I needed it; it's different from taking it for weight loss because it's not a regimen. BTW...I am NOT saying Ambar shouldn't be taking ephedrine; I was taking it for the same reasons, to boost my weight loss on lo-carb. It's just that for ME it was really bad.
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Date:August 3rd, 2001 03:06 pm (UTC)
Whereas I'm saner than ever. (Witnesses who remember the worst of August/September 2000 will agree....)
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Date:August 4th, 2001 07:52 am (UTC)
Wow, so that explains why I start feeling not quite myself (wired but with a persistently "blue" undercurrent) on pseudoephedrine.

Though, I don't think it's about "mental illness", per se as it is the way our endocrine systems are wired. I had a string of weird emortional reactions the week after the comprehensive exams for my Master's (writing two 20-page research papers in 72 hours from a standing start), and a psychologist friend explained it as "adrenal depletion". Basically, when the adrenal glands have been pushed hard enough long enough, they don't produce anymore and there's a whole-body drop that includes major emotional effects. ("The old name for this was a nervous breakdown".)

Incidentially, adrenal depletion plays hob with asthma as well.

Solutions: rest, low stress, and not slamming down the stimulants. Diet Pepsi is a two-edged sword -- great for cranking up for study/work, but a couple of days of that and I'm back to depleted. Instead, Kava Kava (sedation without going fuzzy-headed) and better work planning are my friends.
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Date:August 3rd, 2001 03:11 pm (UTC)
I forgot to mention...

You can't cheat on a diet. You can only cheat yourself.
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